T.G.I.J. - or thank goodness it's July!
June has always been what I have termed my "slit-my-wrists" month. For me the commercial auditions are slower, episodics (TV) are on hiatus mostly and no money seems to want to come in no matter how many times I check the mailbox.
So this past month I decided to try to take a more pro-active approach. I started improv classes, shot new headshots and hit up the casting director workshops to get my face in front of some folks. I auditioned for every lil' indie film that I could get to that called me in just to get the experience.
Had a few good auditions over the month which culminated to a few "avail"s (that notorious word that has you one step away from booking the job) and one for a SAG National (can you say much needed $$?) .... nope, they went with someone else. Le sigh. Avails are breaking my heart this year. What is wrong with me?? See, that's what most actors say and yeah I do it too every now and then.
Then I go in for a callback with a director who had me on avail for another spot that I also did not book. He told me he fought for me to book the spot but some of other decision-makers thought I looked too young. He told me he really liked me and liked what I did. Now how can you feel bad about yourself after hearing that?
I feel like the worst thing actors can do is self-sabotage. Confidence is such a key part in the business side of the craft. Try to never let 'em see you sweat, etc. Remember that if you are getting called in you are awesome. If you are getting callbacks you are awesome. If you get put on avail you are awesome! Actually booking it? Well, that is just gravy on the biscuit. Yes I was fully disappointed that I didn't book that SAG national. Yes I am entirely frustrated at the number of times I have come avail-close to booking a job this year.
But you put your big girl panties on, deal with it and move on to the next month and next opportunity.
...oh, and a callback for the film from the crazy monologue audition. ;-)
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